being blind within

it's just been recently that i have achieved somewhat a great dream not i could have ever dreamed of: being where i am now.
i never wxpected that i could achieve such....
but recently, i'm experiencing something weird. i just can't tell what i really want.
in short, iam confused.
i can't find any motivation whatsoever to pursue my studies. i want to live a life free of any responsibilities which actually contradicts my being a high aspirator,,,
i can't find my purpose
i know what i want but i can't push myself to be there
it's something serious i can't make a laugh about.





so the journey continues.......